I thought that i talked to R on Monday night, but now i don't know. Ever since then, i've been wondering if i'm condemned to singleness, because any romantic relationship might get in the way of my relationship with God. This is really hard. I startled R by bringing up the idea of this being wrong on Monday night, and now he's back to not talking to me. But i don't know how to focus on God anymore either. It's so hard. I want both relationships, but when i think about it, the verse about not serving two masters comes to mind. I know that was about money, but couldn't it apply to other things? Then i wonder, how do Christian married couples manage to make it work?
Oh well, enough of my whining.