Wednesday, July 30, 2008

so confused

I thought that i talked to R on Monday night, but now i don't know. Ever since then, i've been wondering if i'm condemned to singleness, because any romantic relationship might get in the way of my relationship with God. This is really hard. I startled R by bringing up the idea of this being wrong on Monday night, and now he's back to not talking to me. But i don't know how to focus on God anymore either. It's so hard. I want both relationships, but when i think about it, the verse about not serving two masters comes to mind. I know that was about money, but couldn't it apply to other things? Then i wonder, how do Christian married couples manage to make it work?
Oh well, enough of my whining.

1 comment:

ryoshu said...

About relationships of family. Quote from Holy Bible (Ephesians, chapter 5, verses from 21 to the end).
"Be subordinate to one another out of reverence for Christ. Wives should be subordinate to their husbands as to the Lord. For the husband is head of his wife just as Christ is head of the church, he himself the savior of the body. As the church is subordinate to Christ, so wives should be subordinate to their husbands in everything. Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ loved the church and handed himself over for her to sanctify her, cleansing her by the bath of water with the word, that he might present to himself the church in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish. So (also) husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. For no one hates his own flesh but rather nourishes and cherishes it, even as Christ does the church, because we are members of his body. "For this reason a man shall leave (his) father and (his) mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh." This is a great mystery, but I speak in reference to Christ and the church. In any case, each one of you should love his wife as himself, and the wife should respect her husband. "

I think having two masters is not a good similarity. One person can live only charging his wellness from God's Love directly, some need a mediator to achieve the Love, from God through human. We must remember that every Love has its beginning in our Lord. Loving life partner, being like one body and being happy is a foretaste of the heaven.